I used to be a comfort food eater. If I was having a highly stressful day, or I was upset about something – I’d totally reach for something tasty to make myself feel better. I mean, let’s face it, a nice warm gooey grilled cheese can ease many of life’s ills (at least temporarily). This is something I’ve worked hard at overcoming in the last 18 months, and I’ve been pretty good about it. However, something I’ve discovered recently (well, I’ve known about it, but it’s really become front and center within the last month) is that when I have actual anxiety issues (even full-blown panic mode) – food is the last thing on my mind.
While this sounds like it would be awesome for someone who is dieting, it’s really not. For example, when we were facing hurricane Florence, all thoughts of food simply vanished several days before she was due to hit. Even the couple days that I managed to come close to my calorie goal, it was more of an afterthought and me simply grabbing whatever was handy (usually high-calorie junk), as I didn’t have the spoons to deal with much else. Even once we got back home and knew everyone was safe, I still had a hard time feeling hungry.
I’ve really struggled the last couple weeks trying to get back on track with my diet – and in truth, I haven’t gotten there, it’s still been pretty hit or miss. And now we are facing another storm (though probably not as bad for us, still not great) and again my appetite is gone. I’m not beating myself up about this, because I’ve got enough stress to deal with, but it definitely sucks.
I started another HealthyWage challenge and the Fall Fitness challenge at my gym, but I have no motivation for either one at the moment. I had hoped to start going to my gym more often, but at this point just going to my weekly small group training takes all the extra energy I have.
Fall used to be my favorite season (and in some ways it still is), but these days, I can’t wait for it to end. As much as I dislike winter – I’ll take it any day over the hell that is hurricane season.
Anyway, if you are going through something similar – be kind to yourself and remember you are doing the best you can. ❤