Weekly Weigh-In: Week 15

Week 15: 338

Weight Lost This Week: 0 (gained 4 pounds)

Total Weight Lost: 52 pounds

To be fair, there were 2 birthdays, my dad was in town, and it was that time of the month. On the other hand, even though I ate a ton of crap this week, I don’t think I should have gained 4 pounds from it. There were only 2 days that I was WAY, WAY over and on most of the others I was on-target or my exercise calories came pretty close to canceling out the overages (normally I don’t eat them back, but some do) – so this much of a gain seems to be excessive. Especially given that my 1200 a day calorie goal is quite a ways under what most programs say that I need to eat in order to lose (like most put me around 1700), so even if I’m not losing anything, I shouldn’t be gaining either. Oh well… on to a new week and getting back on track.

The really sad part – except for the day I ate at Outback (and the birthday cakes), most of the food I ate wasn’t that great and I ended up regretting eating it almost immediately. What’s the fun of eating if you can’t enjoy it? 😦


Weekly Weigh-In: Week 13

Week 13: 336

Weight Lost This Week: 3 pounds

Total Weight Lost: 54 pounds

Weight loss is so weird. Anyhoo… I actually weighed in on Thursday this week, because I’ll be technically out of town most of Friday – only going about 20 minutes down the road, but didn’t want to have to mess with traffic and parking so we got a hotel (might as well take a mini-vacay when I can. LOL).

#RaleighSuperCon FTW!! Hubby wants to meet Michael Rooker and Jason Mews, so off we go. It goes without saying that I probably won’t be eating all that well Thursday night and Friday, but at least this way I’ll know where I was and can better judge the damage. Will try not to go too overboard though. XD


Just Not Meant to Be

Despite my frustrations on the weeks where I don’t lose much, obviously I am losing weight consistently, and after thinking it over for a while, I’ve decided not to have the surgery.

I had told my doctor in the beginning that if I was going to do it, it had to be no later than the very beginning of August (and even that was pushing it) and even though I got all my stuff done early, the last appointment I needed (for an EGD), they couldn’t schedule until the end of July. Which, of course, pretty much screwed me (since they still have to submit everything to the insurance and wait for it all to be approved). I’d already been having some doubts anyways, so rather than try to cram everything in last minute (and hope it all somehow managed to work itself out), I took it as a sign and cancelled the whole thing.

Honestly, I’m glad. The more I thought about it, I really, really was uncomfortable with messing around with my insides. I mean, if they’d done it when I went in for my first appointment, that would have been fine, but giving me all this time to think about it – not good. XD Besides, I’m already able to restrict what I eat – most of the time anyways – so physically making my stomach smaller doesn’t seem like it will make that much of a difference. And I’m worried that if I have days when I feel like I’m starving, I don’t want to not be able to eat if I want to. I want to lose the weight, but I also don’t want to be totally miserable while I’m doing it (at least not more so than I already am).

I will still continue to work on losing the weight and I will still continue to follow up with the doctor regularly (they have a non-surgical team as well), maybe not every month, but at least every 2-3 months. That way I have some sort of accountability. If I try to do it on my own I will totally failsauce. Definitely don’t want to do that. Plus the oldest is getting married in early October, so I still have a good reason (well… at least another good reason) for keeping on keeping on. With a bit of luck, I could be under 300lbs by then (or at least pretty close), which would be AWESOME!!!


It’s pretty clear to me, that the banana flavored meal replacement shake isn’t as filling as the other flavors (such as the mocha and chocolate that I generally also drink). Like, it has nearly the same ingredients (other than the flavorings), but for whatever reason, when I drink the banana ones, I spend the rest of the day starving, whereas, with the others I don’t feel the constant need to fill my belly. So… no more banana. Or at least not to start the day with.

I Want All The Food

I know that I’m doing good overall, but holy crap I am so HUNGRY this last week or so. Feel like I’m starving. It’s crazy. Not doing anything different either, but just suddenly the food I was eating isn’t enough. Thought it was just because it was that time of the month (sorry for the TMI), but got through that by eating Skinny Cow Chocolate Fudgetastic Swirl bars – which are totally yummy by the way! But no, now I’m just hungry all the time and it’s really bumming me out.