Weekly Weigh-In: Weeks 85 and 86


Week 86 Current Weight: 244

Pounds Lost This Week: doesn’t really count

Total Weight Lost: 146

I was out of town for Week 85 and still not making very good food choices, but the good news is that I stuck with it this week and managed to drop closer to where I need to be, to be back on track. Hopefully I can keep up with it, even though I still have to get through the bulk of the Holiday season.

 

 

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Weekly Weigh-In: Week 84


Week 84 Current Weight: some godawful number

Pounds Lost This Week: 0

Total Weight Lost: lafjlhhgagho

I’m going to pretend like this week never happened. I mean, yeah it was Thanksgiving, but still…

Anyhoo, starting tomorrow, I am going to get my lazy ass back on track. Whatever this bug is that has crawled up my butt the last couple months – it’s getting squashed. I am not going to go back to the way I was.

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 83


Week 83 Current Weight: 246

Pounds Lost This Week: 0 (gained 2 pounds)

Total Weight Lost: 144 pounds

I’ve decided that the term “yo-yo” dieting is not the right way to describe it. It’s more like a carousel. You just keep going up and down and up and down… around and around and around. XD

Still, I think I’ve managed to actually “cure” my sweet tooth this past week. I ate so much chocolate one day that I honestly felt sick. Which is bad, I know, but I just wanted it gone and hubby kept buying more. But at least now I don’t have any cravings. LOL

 

Weekly Weigh-In: Weeks 81 and 82


Week 82 Current Weight: 244

Pounds Lost This Week: 4

Total Weight Lost: 146 pounds

I was out of town last week on weigh-in day (for Week 81), and though I weighed myself before I left on Thursday, by the time I got back on Sunday I’d blown any losses completely out of the water (seriously I was back up over 250 pounds) and decided I didn’t even want to officially log that shit anywhere. The really sad part is that except for the cupcakes I got from Smallcakes in Winter Park, FL (which were freaking amazing) and the grilled cheese sandwich I  ate with my friend when we went out to dinner, most of the food I ate over the weekend didn’t even taste that good. So, an almost total waste of calories (looking at you Steak ‘n Shake… I was very disappointed). No, I lied, there was the club sandwich and a ham and cheese omelette at the Westin in Jekyll Island that were pretty awesome as well, but the rest (things eaten elsewhere), yeah… not so much.

So, I did somewhat better with things once I got home, so the water weight is dropping back off, but I’m still struggling overall. I don’t think I made my calorie goal even one day this week (at all). But that’s ok. I’ll keep trying.

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 80


Week 80 Current Weight: 248

Pounds Lost This Week: 0

Total Weight Lost: 142 pounds

*sigh*

So, I’m going to go back to the beginning and do protein shakes daily, as a meal replacement, for a bit to try to get a better handle on this. I know I’ve had a lot going on and, mentally, was not in a great place the last couple months, but I do not want to gain weight like this. So, I’ve got to do better.

Honestly, I feel like shit. I’m exhausted and everything has been hurting again. So not only the weight gain, but clearly, the foods I’m eating aren’t good for me in a variety of ways. I just need to get my mental game back on track so that when I’m presented with a challenge I don’t give in immediately, like I’ve been doing the last few weeks.

I’m pretty sure a lot of this is water weight, because although I’ve been eating a lot more, I’ve not been eating THAT MUCH, that I should have gained nearly 20 pounds in less than 2 months. So with any luck it will drop back off soon-ish. Still, it’s very disappointing.

But, it’s ok… I’ve got this!!

 

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 78


Week 78 Current Weight: 240

Pounds Lost This Week: 0 (gained 6)

Total Weight Lost: 150 pounds

This week’s gain courtesy of hurricane Michael. The good news is I will be back on track after today. Not only do I have my HealthyWage challenge in the works (and I do not want to lose $$), but I also have tickets (VIP Meet & Greet) to see Walk the Moon in February and I really would love to be under 200 pounds by showtime. I know I probably won’t lose 40 pounds by then (it’s only 17 weeks, and even if I lost 2 pounds a week it would only be about 34), but still gives me a great reason to stay motivated. Now if only the weather would cooperate. I am so ready for hurricane season to be over.

 

Thinky Thoughts: Anxiety and Food


I used to be a comfort food eater. If I was having a highly stressful day, or I was upset about something – I’d totally reach for something tasty to make myself feel better. I mean, let’s face it, a nice warm gooey grilled cheese can easy many of life’s ills (at least temporarily). This is something I’ve worked hard at overcoming in the last 18 months, and I’ve been pretty good about it. However, something I’ve discovered recently (well, I’ve known about it, but it’s really become front and center within the last month) is that when I have actual anxiety issues (even full-blown panic mode) – food is the last thing on my mind.

While this sounds like it would be awesome for someone who is dieting, it’s really not. For example, when we were facing hurricane Florence, all thoughts of food simply vanished several days before she was due to hit. Even the couple days that I managed to come close to my calorie goal, it was more of an afterthought and me simply grabbing whatever was handy (usually high-calorie junk), as I didn’t have the spoons to deal with much else. Even once we got back home and knew everyone was safe, I still had a hard time feeling hungry.

I’ve really struggled the last couple weeks trying to get back on track with my diet – and in truth, I haven’t gotten there, it’s still been pretty hit or miss. And now we are facing another storm (though probably not as bad for us, still not great) and again my appetite is gone. I’m not beating myself up about this, because I’ve got enough stress to deal with, but it definitely sucks.

I started another HealthyWage challenge and the Fall Fitness challenge at my gym, but I have no motivation for either one at the moment. I had hoped to start going to my gym more often, but at this point just going to my weekly small group training takes all the extra energy I have.

Fall used to be my favorite season (and in some ways it still is), but these days, I can’t wait for it to end. As much as I dislike winter – I’ll take it any day over the hell that is hurricane season.

Anyway, if you are going through something similar – be kind to yourself and remember you are doing the best you can. ❤

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 77


Week 77 Current Weight: 234

Pounds Lost This Week: 6

Total Weight Lost: 156 pounds

Water weight is fun. XD

One of my goals for this current fitness challenge is to go to the gym more often. At one point I was going almost every day for a while, but as summer hit I got lazy and have only been going to my Monday evening small group training. Even though we’re getting ready to start week 3 on Monday, so far, I’m still just going my same old once a week. Though to be fair, the kiddo’s been having a rough time the last month or so, and I’m still trying to recover from the ginormous panic attack and utter exhaustion that was hurricane Florence. Everything was fine here at the house, but the mental stress of it all, not to mention we ended up leaving town just in case (since originally we were going to be in a more direct path), was pretty significant.

My eating habits have still been a little off. Either I’m not hungry or when I am, there’s nothing that I want (all I want is junk and I’m trying really hard not to give in to that too much). Hopefully, things will work themselves out soon.

I did start another HealthyWage challenge as well. The goal is to lose 25 more pounds in the next 6 months. I know it’s a fairly conservative goal (since I usually average more than a pound a week weight loss), but I also know the holidays are coming up, so I figured it was better to aim low than to set myself up for total failure. Anyone who wants to join me – please feel free.

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 76


Week 76 Current Weight: 240

Pounds Lost This Week: 4

Total Weight Lost: 150 pounds

I probably would have been down a couple more pounds (not complaining in the slightest though), but hubby made homemade shells and cheese (pretty sure he used a whole block of white cheddar and another half of provolone, along with heavy cream) the other day and I ate a ginormous pan of the leftovers last night. No regrets. It was really freaking yummy!!

First week of the Fall Fitness Challenge (starting weight also 240), so it will be good to see where I am in 8 weeks when it’s over. I only went to the gym once this week, even though my goal was to up to at least twice. For whatever reason (too many squats), I was really sore most of the week, and I’ve got a lot of stuff going on this weekend so probably won’t make it then either. Next week I will do better!!