Monthly Archives: October 2018

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 80

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Week 80 Current Weight: 248

Pounds Lost This Week: 0

Total Weight Lost: 142 pounds

*sigh*

So, I’m going to go back to the beginning and do protein shakes daily, as a meal replacement, for a bit to try to get a better handle on this. I know I’ve had a lot going on and, mentally, was not in a great place the last couple months, but I do not want to gain weight like this. So, I’ve got to do better.

Honestly, I feel like shit. I’m exhausted and everything has been hurting again. So not only the weight gain, but clearly, the foods I’m eating aren’t good for me in a variety of ways. I just need to get my mental game back on track so that when I’m presented with a challenge I don’t give in immediately, like I’ve been doing the last few weeks.

I’m pretty sure a lot of this is water weight, because although I’ve been eating a lot more, I’ve not been eating THAT MUCH, that I should have gained nearly 20 pounds in less than 2 months. So with any luck it will drop back off soon-ish. Still, it’s very disappointing.

But, it’s ok… I’ve got this!!

 

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Weekly Weigh-In: Week 78

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Week 78 Current Weight: 240

Pounds Lost This Week: 0 (gained 6)

Total Weight Lost: 150 pounds

This week’s gain courtesy of hurricane Michael. The good news is I will be back on track after today. Not only do I have my HealthyWage challenge in the works (and I do not want to lose $$), but I also have tickets (VIP Meet & Greet) to see Walk the Moon in February and I really would love to be under 200 pounds by showtime. I know I probably won’t lose 40 pounds by then (it’s only 17 weeks, and even if I lost 2 pounds a week it would only be about 34), but still gives me a great reason to stay motivated. Now if only the weather would cooperate. I am so ready for hurricane season to be over.

 

Thinky Thoughts: Anxiety and Food

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I used to be a comfort food eater. If I was having a highly stressful day, or I was upset about something – I’d totally reach for something tasty to make myself feel better. I mean, let’s face it, a nice warm gooey grilled cheese can ease many of life’s ills (at least temporarily). This is something I’ve worked hard at overcoming in the last 18 months, and I’ve been pretty good about it. However, something I’ve discovered recently (well, I’ve known about it, but it’s really become front and center within the last month) is that when I have actual anxiety issues (even full-blown panic mode) – food is the last thing on my mind.

While this sounds like it would be awesome for someone who is dieting, it’s really not. For example, when we were facing hurricane Florence, all thoughts of food simply vanished several days before she was due to hit. Even the couple days that I managed to come close to my calorie goal, it was more of an afterthought and me simply grabbing whatever was handy (usually high-calorie junk), as I didn’t have the spoons to deal with much else. Even once we got back home and knew everyone was safe, I still had a hard time feeling hungry.

I’ve really struggled the last couple weeks trying to get back on track with my diet – and in truth, I haven’t gotten there, it’s still been pretty hit or miss. And now we are facing another storm (though probably not as bad for us, still not great) and again my appetite is gone. I’m not beating myself up about this, because I’ve got enough stress to deal with, but it definitely sucks.

I started another HealthyWage challenge and the Fall Fitness challenge at my gym, but I have no motivation for either one at the moment. I had hoped to start going to my gym more often, but at this point just going to my weekly small group training takes all the extra energy I have.

Fall used to be my favorite season (and in some ways it still is), but these days, I can’t wait for it to end. As much as I dislike winter – I’ll take it any day over the hell that is hurricane season.

Anyway, if you are going through something similar – be kind to yourself and remember you are doing the best you can. ❤

Weekly Weigh-In: Week 77

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Week 77 Current Weight: 234

Pounds Lost This Week: 6

Total Weight Lost: 156 pounds

Water weight is fun. XD

One of my goals for this current fitness challenge is to go to the gym more often. At one point I was going almost every day for a while, but as summer hit I got lazy and have only been going to my Monday evening small group training. Even though we’re getting ready to start week 3 on Monday, so far, I’m still just going my same old once a week. Though to be fair, the kiddo’s been having a rough time the last month or so, and I’m still trying to recover from the ginormous panic attack and utter exhaustion that was hurricane Florence. Everything was fine here at the house, but the mental stress of it all, not to mention we ended up leaving town just in case (since originally we were going to be in a more direct path), was pretty significant.

My eating habits have still been a little off. Either I’m not hungry or when I am, there’s nothing that I want (all I want is junk and I’m trying really hard not to give in to that too much). Hopefully, things will work themselves out soon.

I did start another HealthyWage challenge as well. The goal is to lose 25 more pounds in the next 6 months. I know it’s a fairly conservative goal (since I usually average more than a pound a week weight loss), but I also know the holidays are coming up, so I figured it was better to aim low than to set myself up for total failure. Anyone who wants to join me – please feel free.